Blogging. I've heard people talk about it. My friend has one. People have told me I should start one, and yet, I never have. I had never wanted to conform to what everyone else was doing at the time. I always loved to go my own path, which usually meant going to opposite way of everyone else.
Everyone was writing about themselves. I just couldn't do it, and I still think that I'm not very good at it... But give me a song list featuring the Beatles and Metallica, and you've got the right concoction for a good fantasy/sci fi fiction coming from these nimble fingertips that are able to snatch a running 21 month old from thin air. Haha.
I had wanted to write about my friend's and I's journeys in the world of SWTOR, but I've restarted this blog I think about twenty times (and I'm not exaggerating there) and I just can't get it right unless I were to make it a short story, and I don't believe blogs are supposed to be short stories. Nope, I just researched it. It's supposed to be journal entry after journal entry about the person's every day life or their opinions or something along those lines...
If that's the case, then I'm completely screwed in that department, that's for sure. I failed miserably, even at a little age, of trying the diary or journal thing. Looking back at them, I always seemed to make up a character for that day and write down what they did, but in a story sense. But I guess I can try this thing, since there are quite a few people out there that want to read a blog from me. (Still unsure why, since the funniest I get is when I talk in vent.)
Being 24 with two little kids can be quite the hassle, and leave little time to write anything these days. But there are those moments where Toby is sitting in his room watching Star Wars: The Clone Wars, and Aidan is playing in the pack in play, leaving me to scratch the top of my head and wonder what I should be doing. Yeah, some of the house needs cleaned, but I usually wait until I put Toby to bed to do that trivial stuff, that way I'm not repeating myself 20 times that day for something that should only have been done once.
I sit here now, wishing I was writing more to a story that I have started about two of my characters from SWTOR. While playing the game, you don't quite get the in depth that I had wanted. They don't really delve into things too far. Well, they can't. It would probably loose people left and right if it did. So I thought to myself as I was playing, "Ya know, I've always had these characters locked in my head and never had a reason to write down on paper about them." It was the realization that hit when the Legacy System was unlocked that really jet started me into putting down on paper about these two that are so close to my heart.
Zeik Helikias and his legacy that follows him and Ulic Balios, his faithful Bounty Hunter companion. These two are my passion in a sense with writing. I could sit down, with my music playing, and write out fifteen pages about the two and their adventures in only a few hours. (Which I actually did last night in around three hours time.)
That's my true passion, actually. Writing. Yeah, I love being mommy during the day and playing SWTOR at night with my friends after the kids have been taken care of, but my real passion is writing about characters that have been stuck in my head for years without anywhere to wander except deeper into my mind and on more adventures as their time goes on. People have said to me that I should become a writer, but I just can't, I don't think. I like writing about my characters from Star Wars, from World of Warcraft, and I couldn't get those published. I doubt George Lucas would read my work and smile before going, "Wow! That's actually pretty interesting! Let's get it published and put on shelves!" No, I bet he'd start reading it, laugh and then look up before going, "This is a pile of crap for the Star Wars Universe! You disgrace my work by doing something like this!" And Blizzard would laugh in my face at the thought of Desiterus Celestius being something fit for a story.
And that fear is why I haven't put up any of my writings where people can see them. I have my faithful writing buddy Liz, who reads them and inspires me a little with her words, but she's the only one that ever reads the stuff. I don't even allow my husband to read it for fear of him thinking its crap.
It would be awesome though, if I could get it published, but that's just an ultimate fantasy that I have that will never come to pass. You see all these other people writing about different people in the Star Wars Universe, and I'd love to be one of them, because I research everything before writing a chapter (sadly), but dreams are meant to stay just that... dreams.
But back to the blogging thing, since I seem to be getting off track a little... what am I talking about, I got off by a whole continent in a sense with that tangent about writing.
But what can I say about myself that I haven't really said already? See, I'm not good at the writing about myself thing. Writing epic journeys about other people and their lives is such simple work to me, but writing my opinions and my life down... It's just ridiculously hard and I can't seem to do it. So the question of the day to those reading out there...
Is it possible to write about someone else's adventures in a blog? Or does it have to be about your day or your opinions? Because my days are usually all the same and my opinions just stay that, my opinions (and are never aired to the public.). Some Feedback would be interesting about this, since I know I've probably botched this thing called a blog (which probably isn't even a blog).
I would love to blog about Ulic and Zeik's lives, it would definately be more interesting, but is that allowed?
The many questions that fill my head with no one here to answer them except my trust lab/terrier mix Ella and my youngest son Aidan, who is drinking his bottle at this point in time. My oldest, Tobias, is happily in his room watching Master Yoda and three clones fight off Ventress' droids... Yes, I know most of the scenes from Star Wars: the Clone Wars. It's my duty as a mommy to know those things and the theme songs from things.
Of course, that group of misfits really don't have an opinion about blogs or actually known anything of it. So I sit here, wondering to myself if the people reading this are laughing their asses off at how much of a poor excuse this is for a blog, or if they're actually rather interested. Or, a third option... they're just so incredibly confused that they've closed out of this and forgotten completely about it.
Who knows, who cares, really. For those of you who have made it this far into the entry and are still reading, I congratulate you with big 'yays' and a round of applause.
And now I bid you all adeau, for I have mommy duty once again that is calling my name by the yells of my two sons. Oh, and Cat... remind me again why I wanted to do this? It's harder then I thought it would be... WAY harder.
It's hard to believe that you're only four years older than me!! ... that's sounds wrong... I don't mean any disrespect I've just always felt that there was a larger gap between our ages.
ReplyDeleteThat's sort of cool that we're not as far apart as I once thought. :P
I'll be twenty-five this year in July.
DeleteWait... so you're only like... four years older than me?
Delete*mind blown*
Ash! You're doing this because you're an amazing writer. It doesn't matter what you write about, it matters that you write at all. Write the stories you tell me about your characters, write about us in vent, write about being a mom and a wife, write about anything that pops into your head because that's the whole point: writing.
ReplyDeletePeople don't just subscribe to blogs because they seem important, or current. They subscribe because the person writing has something funny or cool to say that they can relate to. They subscribe because we, the writers, have a certain something about us that makes reading our posts a pleasure. Our random musings and off-color, off-topic discussions give rounded views of us as people, as well as the lives we lead.
Be funny, be creative, and do what you're best at: sharing your joy. You shine when you write, so keep writing. Yes, it's hard. Yes, it can be frustrating. Yes, it's worth it.
Keep writing, and keep being fabulous. :)