Laments of Zeik

He had lost her. Lost the woman he loved. He hadn't been strong enough to keep their hands off of her. True, he had taken down a few before they had surrounded them, but he hadn't been strong enough.

Not strong enough.

That thought had pain lacing through his heart deeply, and he blinked back his tears. Here he was, in a cell, Force locked away, and all he could think about was her shocked face. The worry for him that radiated from her. The sickening sound of blaster fire and Ulic's strangled cry as he crumpled to the ground, clutching his shoulder.

He refused their questions, ignored their prodding. All he wanted was his little Ellona. He wanted that piece of perfection that he had finally grasped. Her beautiful steely eyes  that always seemed to radiate whatever emotion she was feeling, even if she didn't wish it. Her gorgeous strawberry blond hair that smell of such a sweet scent that he even now could just barely waft it upon the wind.

Not strong enough.

The echoing pain from that thought brought on another pain, but was it really from that, or what they were doing to him?

He closed his eyes, imagining her laugh that lilted upon the air, as if bells accompanied it. He imagined her lips and how luscious they were, how well they tasted.

Where was she now? What had the Republic done to her? Would they allow her freedom? Or would they label her a traitor and do away with her as they were going to with him?

Not strong enough.

Pain laced his body once again, and he lowered his head to his chest, barely keeping a sob back at the thought of anything happening to her.

Not strong...

He shook his head back and forth. If he had never agreed to this stupid trek, they wouldn't have gotten caught. If he had stuck to his original plan of heading to Illum, they would have been flying clear without being split up, without being captured.

And now? Now there was no chance of escape. Now there was no companions to aid in his rescue. Now he was virtually... alone.

That one word. It sent shivers down his spine. He didn't want to be alone. It terrified him. He feared when he was alone. He feared what would happen to his mind. What if he forgot everyone? What if he became the heartless Sith that he once was? What if he forgot himself? Or what if he just completely lost his mind?

Who would be there to help him? To bring him back to himself?

I'm sorry.

He wanted to tell them all, but he knew they would not hear him.

I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough.

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Zeik Helikias

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This was just a little blurb from the mind of my Sith Inquisitor. This is set a few years after the ending of SWTOR online game. There's definitely back story on my characters, I love them as if they were absolutely real. And at one point I will do back stories on them, especially Ulic and Zeik, but right now I'm just writing their story together.